suffering

living with the hurt



suffering with pain 




either u come and kill me


or go out of my life 


the presence of yours make me lost


memories of every moment haunt me


want me to be killed and dying .........

@**********new**************])@wN

Now my tragedy has to end 

I will decide what will be next

disastrous days and star-crossed night

barricading all the trouble I had in past

want to start a new day of hope.........

but still some blurry memories is still on my mind...

where I cannot change the feeling.......

to hate the person I love n love the person I don't...

life as a mystery

life is a big mystery

u never know what come and goes


but u can just get hold of the moments


and that moments become memories after.


but there come such time in your life


that u miss that person so much


and just want to take out the moment


out of those memories and relived the 

moment


again and again.................

The left one

suddenly stopped,,no one around...........

feels suffocated,,helpless and submersed..........

breezy ambience,,but breathless........

every thing has cease ,,blow off.............

but one thing that cant be over.........

was the feeling and writing.......

which could not get over or terminate....

coz this might be the last thing left.......

and remain forever and endlessly......

SOME TIMES........

SOME TIMES........



I feel so alone


like the lonely moon In the sky 


surrounded with thousand stars.

SOME TIMES...........


I feel so pain inside


like the tree when it is cut into piece and cant shout.



SOMETIMES..


I feel so lost


like a dead end street.

SOMETIMES............


I feel so breathless 


like a fish taken out of water.



SOMETIMES.........



I feel so life less


like a trees in autumn.



SOMETIMES.....


I feel so imprison


like a bird with broken wings forgotten to fly.......

and this many sometimes make SO MANY TIMES............

drunken....

i m drunk tonite... 

to make every thing rite..
.
it may not be in reality...

but in my mind floating to imaginity...

i dont drink to make me comfort....

bt to clear away my loneliness discomfort... 

as i m drunk so i better don't weep.... 

turn off the lights and let me go to sleep...

**victory**

u lost????????

but I cry for my victory

because I have became 

inhumane.

feel the monstrous inside has 

wake up

merciless I killed every ones 

emotions

now every thing has been so 

sinful....

so now after this long war within 

us

compassionately I try to be merciful..

 change all the feeling to be thoughtful....

so if I lost also...

I will be delighted never as before.....

........life/death..........

howling came the death..


wishing to take her life..........


terrorize and scaring her.....


giving her burden and pain......


had a great conflict....


between life and death.....


lastly supermacy was the death ......


took the life away....


but life wanted to stay.....


so life was stuck between.........


neither hell nor heaven.......